I am thrilled it is a new year.
2017 was good. So good. There were great times and there were hard, super hard and trying and emotional times.
But I’m so very thankful for them. I really am. Zane and I grew closer together. So much closer. We learned more about each other, dug deeper into our love, and we both were able to take care of the other when things didn’t go quite as we hoped.
We went through Foster Care (PATH) training classes. We did respite care for the very first time…and had the joy of doing that multiple times <–which taught me quickly that I am just going to get attached. I just am. I can’t help it. I lied to myself so many times that I could take care of another and not get attached…did you know that no matter how many times you lie to yourself, you can’t make that lie become truth?
We researched agencies for Domestic Adoption, something we didn’t do the first go around because we were so sure that we’d be adopting internationally.
We slowly waded back into the adoption process and I like to think I’ve been handling this waiting period better this second go around.
The Lord has been extremely gracious to us in our efforts to somehow grow an adoption fund. There have been plenty of times when I’ve asked myself “how are we going to make this financially happen if we get “the call” and yet…we both know that “we” aren’t. God is.
So I look here, at this beginning of 2018, and am simply amazed at how the Lord has brought in over $11,000. Literally every step of this journey has been different. And yet, every step of this journey is covered in grace…just like our journey to Zo.
I’m joyful over the thought of all that might happen in 2018. I really am. There was so much closeness in 2017…so much of God binding our love deeper as questions arose for the future. There were so any times that I wondered “what is going on” or “how do we make sense of this.” And yet with every question, God already had the answer. Good thing I keep journals because I have a lot to write down.
J.R.R. Tolkien has the best quote for me to carry into 2018. And our family sure does love some good Tolkien!